After last months failure we decided to throw a hail mary and try again, this time with a new donor, and a new drug.
I went into the doctor yesterday morning to get my pregnancy test. I was in tears all morning because I was sure it was going to be negative. I felt no different then any other time… I figured I was PMS’ing a ton (like usual) and that explained the high emotions.
I got the phone call at 2:15 while I was in a meeting. My stomach tightened as it had every time my phone had buzzed that day. I tried to keep it out of my head while I led the meeting and decided I would go to our lab after the meeting to listen to the voicemail so I could have my reaction in private.
I was on call so I had to work on an issue right after the meeting. It was me and a couple co-workers working together on the issue and as soon as we finished I opened my visual voicemail and read these words
“This is the doctor’s office calling your test did come up positive today.”
The best words ever!! I couldn’t believe it! Finally! I’m not completely broken! I was so extremely excited. I couldn’t stop smiling. I went for a walk outside, not believing it was real and then decided to go home early to tell Scott.
My mom was going to come to wherever I was after she was done with a conference in the cities (to presumably hold me while I cried over another failure). She texted me as I was leaving to go home to tell Scott so I told her to meet me there.
I had always dreamed of telling Scott I was pregnant in a cutesy way so when I got home I tried to grab a baby pumpkin from our decorations quick and put it by my stomach to tell him. I told him that the test was positive and that I was pregnant! He asked if I was serious and I told him “yes!” and I got to see him the happiest I think I’ve seen him since our wedding day (if not more happy). We hugged and talked about how unreal it felt!
We talked for a while more and then my mom drove up and I waited by the door with the pumpkin. I asked her what she thought it meant and she looked at me with a curious expression. Then I told her the same thing I told Scott. She burst into tears and gave me a great big hug and we stood there sobbing like crazy. It was awesome.
We talked about the odds (I thought I had read something about 50% of pregnancies ending in miscarriage and read later that night that the odds were better then that… about 25%) and talked about not getting our hopes up too high just in case. But then I decided that even if it ends in miscarriage, right now I am pregnant, so I get to be over the moon with excitement about it. 🙂
We called the rest of our families and had my siblings come over since they live so close. We pulled out the baby clothes that were in the far back of our guest room closet and started dreaming about the baby that will fill them (still can’t believe that’s real!!). We looked up the due date and found out our baby is due July 2nd!!
I started to call the rest of my friends and then got paged on a high issue that i had to get on my computer to fix. Extreme buzz kill. Once that I was done I called the rest of my list and let them know the good news. It was so much fun! The most fun I’ve had since I got to call people and tell them I was engaged. It’s so great to call and give people news they’ve been waiting to hear for years. It was wonderful!! SO much joy and thanksgiving.
I called this morning and got a Dr. appointment for Friday morning to double check the numbers to make sure they are rising appropriately. They should double from the test yesterday (which was a 14).
I really can’t believe it. I have a tiny little baby in me 🙂
Can’t wait to meet you baby! You are so wanted and loved more than you can imagine. I wish you had ears already so you could have heard how excited people are at your existence!! I hope you felt the love wash over your tiny little self. We’ve waited so long for you. I can’t believe we’ll have you in our arms in less than a year. It seems like an eternity but I’m so excited for the 9 months I get to spend with you. It’s going to be great. Grow well little baby! We love you! Love, Your Mom.